I’ve been wanting to blog for a while. Big life changes recently pushed me to get onto this blogging business to provide a way for me to express myself and to provide family and friends and anyone else who can relate, to tune into the goings-ons in my journey.
This last year has been a big whirlwind for me.
In the area of love, April 1, 2015 I met my soon to-be husband. We were engaged three weeks later. He moved from Oz in November, 2015, we got married May 7 & 9, 2016 (yes two ceremonies!) and he just left on September 3, 2016 to become a teacher of Transcendental Meditation.
In the area of occupation, I’ve been managing the Vancouver Transcendental Meditation Centre for over three years and have just recently given my resignation. My next step is going abroad and teaching on a project somewhere in this big world!
In the area of extracurricular, I am currently in a theatre production called BADMATCH which my lovely friend Leanne Kuzminksi wrote and we produced together. It’s playing at the Vancouver Fringe Festival until September 18th, 2016 (and hopefully extended in the festival as #pickofthefringe. 1/2 our shows have sold out!) I forgot how much I loved to perform and this experience has re-ignited the passion for performing that was quietly waiting to be woken up again.
In the area of self-acceptance and self-love, I’ve finally let go of the impossible ideal of trying to fit into size 8 skinny jeans and embraced my size 10 or 12 hips (more on the size 12 side especially right now : more enjoying of life on the pasta and haagen-dazs side of things) I was sick of always cleansing and eating extreme to fit into my wedding dress, last year’s dress, those jeans I bought 5 years ago and “should” still fit into. Yup, threw those in the donation pile FINALLY! I am beautiful as I am. Thank you Sophia Loren and Marilyn Monroe. Voluptuous I am! It helps to have an ever supportive husband in this area too : “babe! your bum is amazing!” as I was continually trying to shrink it back down to fit into what the media show me is normal.
In the area of self-development, I have become clearer in the last year or so, about who I am and what I will or will not tolerate in my relationships. I’ve grown more independent and conscious of who I am. I’ve learned to set clear boundaries and have learned to be free in self-expression without fear of being abandoned or pushed away. My husband has been a huge part of that. Meeting him was so refreshing. What you see is what you get. There he is, standing next to me, as he is, filled with flaws and imperfections along with all of his perfections right out in the open. No shame. No qualms. He’s led me by example to be openly and vulnerably all that I am.
So here I am, an adventurous free spirit inspired to make the world brighter through teaching meditation and helping people see that we all have stress and insecurities, but with that, we’re all perfect souls that are looking for connection and freedom from these insecurities and stresses that bind and cloud our pereception of what we really are.
This an opportunity for me to share my personal journey and I hope that my observations and expressions here can move others to grow and love themselves more. This is the most important relationship we have in our lives – the relationship with our Self.